Ignite & See Light

I've had this constant urge to blog since the new year started. All month long I said I'd rearrange things and start, but never made time to do it until today. I used to blog all the time and I think it's time to set that back in. I'm not a talker, I'm an observer, so this will help kill emotions I have inside. You can also find and follow me on TUMBLR.

Since 2012 has started a lot has happened. I've made 1,001 stupid or crazy decisions... take your pick on the reference of adjective. I'm not going to explain everything that's happened but I will say that everything I've decided has been for the better. All month I've heard, "You're so crazy!" Maybe I am, but like I explained to my best friend Belle, "I know what I'm doing and if you want to stick around and watch my decisions then I'm cool with that. And if you don't, then BYE! Peace out." I'm lucky to have Belle, because regardless of how ridiculous I sound she listens, laughs, and understands.

In one night, I lost a lot of things but what hurts the most of all those things is losing some part of my pride and dignity. Oh well! Things are rotten sometimes; I have good days and bad days. It bothers me when people see it in my eyes. Damn thee eyes that ruin my cover up! These days I'm hardly EVER home... even if my car is there chances are I'M GONE.

Again, I've had bad luck for the past two months. If you'd like to donate your lucky charm to me I would seriously be honored (: LOL. I don't know what I'd do without my parents or brother; they have picked me up every single time and have been extremely supportive in everything I've done. They haven't yelled or gotten mad at the situations I've set myself in, they've only pushed me to move forward.

Truth be told, I had my favorite morning of the year so far today. I came home content. I'm waiting & hoping... I don't know what for... but I just want something good to happen already. It doesn't have to be anything huge, I just want some of my strength back. When the hell did I let myself become weak like this?! Sentimental! A sap! *barf* ^_^

I didn't try to remember twenty-eleven; I don't know why. All that good is in my head like movie clips. It's kinda sad because it's going to fade. *shrugs* Right now, I want to remember the good and bad of 2012. I'm fixing myself already in this one month alone. It makes me wonder what the rest of the year has in store. I can always erase these blog posts a year from now. LOL!

♥ Toodalooo!