My Calucations Say

I'm supposed to be in bed... but since I stayed home Friday, Saturday, AND Sunday... I am wide awake. This is exactly why I hate not being busy. I caught up on sleep but I felt like I was going to go crazy in this house. I wanted so badly to just leave.

I've bought a few things. Okay maybe more than few but I can't help it sometimes.

The last four months I think I've bought seven pairs of shoes. YIKES.. i just counted in my head. LOL. I love shoes! I always want shoes. I can never have enough shoes.

♥) I've worn out these shoes! I love my jellies! I've been debating to go buy a new pair because mine are completely gross. I always get compliments on them or questions about them. The only thing I hate about them is that they have no support for my feet ((:


♥) These shoes are actually still in my car, in the trunk. LOL! I haven't been given the opportunity to wear them with all this cold and rainy weather. I'm waiting for spring. I bought these last month, I think. Anywho, I will wear them.


♥) I have these shoes in black! I've recieved compliments when I wear them out also. These were to replace my other black shoes which came apart. I had NEVER had shoes come apart like my last pair. I'm quite satisfied with these! :D & they didn't hurt my feet the first time I wore them.


♥) I've also bought a pair of Jessica Simpson Coral pumps. Waste of money. I've worn them once... idk what the hell I did the night I wore them but they're ugly now. I should of thought of the color getting ruined when I bought them but of course, I didn't.

Next on my list is... a pair of TOM TOMs. I really really want a pair! A pair of Vans. I think I have enough sandals. LOL. Oh, I want a pair of running shoes! All day I look at the girls shoes at work. I want a pair now!

I'm ready for SPRING! I have two spring dresses and a pair of bright shorts. WHEN i'll wear these?! who knows?!!! but i just want to already!

♥) I got a white purse. The first time I saw it, I didn't have the money for it but then I ran into it again and was like OKAYYY! i'll buy you. I'm only now starting to use it. I hope to not get it dirty too fast!


♥ Revlon Nail Polish; Indigo Night
My brother really liked the color, lol. I like the color also it goes well with my complexion. I didn't like the way it went on, maybe because I didn't it super fast and careless but I messed up on a few fingers the first time and had to redo them. Also, I didn't like the fact that it didn't really last long. The polish started chipping by the third day. MEH!



ANYHOW! i just wanted to ramble on about clothes & accessories for a while ^_^

Goodnight.

♥Toodaloo

The Show Goes On

I'm super duper sleeeeeeeepy!

I tried napping but all I hear is everything going on around the house. Then in my mind I hear ringing phones, the beeping noise every time a patient comes in, talking going on everywhere... the noises of work. I almost wanted to answer the phones in my head, "Good afternoon, blah blah Clinic." I don't know why I'm so burned out this week. I shouldn't be.

Last night I got in at midnight, the drives home are always nice and long. The roads are dead and my music blasts to drown out my thoughts. Everything I carry on is to keep me busy. I like the feeling of being busy. I can't stand when I have no plans and I'm forced to stay home. I hate being home unless I'm tired like tonight, then it feels good to just be in bed.

I'll finally be getting a good sleep tonight. I hope it rains some more. I love when it rains at night. However, I'm getting tired of the grey mornings.

So much continues to go on...

I'm beginning to think about the summer and next fall. First, I have to get through this spring.

Invaded

Today was not the best Valentine's day but definitely not the worst. I've always hated Valentine's day. Since I was little I've hated the holiday and as I've grown older all my reasoning has just increased... even when I had boyfriends. I don't know if I'll ever really like and enjoy the holiday. I've never been one to ask or demand anything for Valentine's day, I mean, what for really? However, I've always been grateful for the years in the past when my friends, boyfriends, or family members would give me something. I don't need it though.

This day hurt differently, not because of Valentine's day. A year ago, around this time, I was making out in a car. I was on the hugest high and I don't remember anything or anyone on my mind other than the person in front of me. When I thought this evening, about what I was doing last year, a part of me stinged. Truth is, it's stinged all day, I've just been pushing it aside. I loved that night and if no one else gives me a night like that then I might not repress it. Aside from that feeling, I made cupcakes yesterday for my family and today I cooked dinner. I'm okay just not all there. I just really need to get past this week.

I got home late last night and woke up this afternoon. I have to say everyone's text messages made things alright for a while. One text took me by surprise. A guy and I met each other, I with no intention of starting anything (it's a long story), but he left me an interesting text:

"Happy Valentine's Day, I wish you the best all day today and for the rest of your life. Hopefully everything goes perfect for you. I'm here for you, you're cool that's why."

It was less literate (really annoying). I was really perplexed by it all, simply because I told this guy I wasn't looking for anything/a relationship. Guys are weird. It just came out of no where.

I need more time for myself.

I know everyone thinks I'm crazy and what not, but maybe that's what I need. I don't know really. I'm still figuring it all. I'm such a complicated mess. I say one thing and the next day something different. My days are really biploar. I literally have good and bad days, there is no consistency. BLAH!

I have work tomorrow so good night.


♥ I love you.

The Love Mark

I haven't been home on a Friday night in a REALLY long time. I've been anticipating on leaving for the past hour but I'm not going to. I need to stay home plus I'm too lazy to get dressed again. It's not hard, it's just really awkward to be home in my room. I don't know how to explain the feeling. I explained to someone how it was hard to be in my room but we won't go into that story.

In my last post, I said how I paid off school. Yep, close to $900 down. Yes, you read right. Every penny was mine. Most of it was from my savings which really sucks but OH WELL. I don't regret my decision. Every time I tell someone at work.. they're like WHAT? WHY! I know why and that's all that matters. Don't ask me how I have that much money or where it comes from. I'm just a really good saver. I'll make money, get paid, and move it quickly to my savings before I spend it. I sike myself out, like it was never there. It's weird... I know. I don't eat out. I would much rather STARVE than eat out. When it comes to buying clothes, I want a lot of versatile clothes for the least amount of money. I won't spend $35 all on one item; I'd rather have 3-4 pieces for a little more than that price. I hide money, LOL. I'll put $10 in a winter jacket, in a book, a purse I don't use often, or under my clock. Then months later I'll find it when I'm broke and I'll feel like a baller! Teehee.

My week has been alright. It hasn't been the greatest but not the worst. Last week was much better. My co-worker has slowing been transitioning me into doing her work for her. It gets annoying but at the same time I don't mind because I learn more. The clinic has still been giving away stuff like crazy, it's ridiculous! Large planners, pocket planners, small calendars, pens, caps, coffee mugs, thermal coffee mugs, stickers & pencils for the kids; for Valentine's Day, chocolate lollipops and popcorn. Some people leave thrilled. The merchandise never ends.

Thursday, everyone was all smiley. The patients would walk out and smile at me. It was a good day; one of the pharmaceutical reps brought us lunch from Russo's Pizza. We all ate pasta (chicken alfredo or spaghetti), salad, and breadsticks. He also brought cheesecake for dessert. I feel like I've eaten so much food this week!

Today was just flat out annoying. I didn't have a bad day but it could have been much better. I'm still adding to my 1,001 mistakes. I still haven't figured out if it's because they're not as bad that I don't care or I just don't give a fuck. *shrugs* I believe it's more because they're not that bad. I'll survive.

HERE WE GO WEEKEND! I'm off now.

<3 Toodaloooo (: